Posted December 7, 2010 by Diana
I could write a book I suppose. My husband and I have been married 48+ years. He had his first manic episode back in 1966. The others were 1968, 1971, 1972, 1973, 1994, and 1998. Those were all manic episodes followed by severe depression.
Each manic episode required hospitalization because he became psychotic, thinking he was Jesus or God and everything else that accompanies this horrific disease. He would be hospitalized up to 8 weeks for the mania. He’s had depression with each one, the severest being his first episode. During this time he tried to commit suicide on 2 occasions.
He had one time that was only a 6 week depression (no mania preceded it) where he slept all the time and only got out of bed to eat or go to the bathroom. Going through a manic episode is like going through a hell on earth, for the non-afflicted loved one. Going through a depressive episode is like a hell on earth for the afflicted one.
My husband started on lithium back in 1971, but didn’t want to take his medicine. After the episode in 1973, he became faithful to do so. Now he takes both lithium and Depakote. He takes Wellbutrin also. I think these medications are a gift from God. They have helped my husband to live a normal life. They have helped us live a normal life. (We had 2 small children when this first happened and I was expecting our 3rd child. Four years later we had one more child. Now they are all grown and happily married.)
Oh yes, our lives get interrupted when an episode happens, but basically his disease is under control. I feel like every episode seems to wipe a year out of your life between the 2 month mania and the several months of depression. My husband is a wonderful man, it’s not his fault this happened to him. But it is very hard on everyone when these episodes happen. I give God the glory for all He has helped the two of us through. We couldn’t have made it without Him.