Posted January 9, 2012
I hate being bipolar. I hate that the mania feels so good BUT ALWAYS GETS ME INTO TROUBLE. I am currently taking Neurontin, Prozac, and Abilify and it’s working. (I am at a happy medium.) In the past I have always stopped taking my medicine HOPING TO GET A LITTLE MANIC, which as I get older I realize is SO STUPID because I either end up in jail or the nut house OR BOTH.
I could tell a bunch of stories, but I would have to write a book, so for now this is all I can share. People have asked me what the mania feels like, and all I can say is for me it feels like I have done a huge line of cocaine and can’t come down for like weeks, sometimes months. The mania is not worth THE CRASH OF DEPRESSION HELL which lasts way longer than the mania. It’s not worth going off my medicine, so I have my fiancé monitor me taking it each day. It’s very important to have a good doctor and a strong support system. THANK GOD BIPOLAR is TREATABLE. Good Luck to Everyone.